Fail. Here I am, the blog has won again.
But then I sit down to write something and it comes out totally lame. Like nothing that I would ever publish much less read. I’ve already rewritten this paragraph 3 times now.
SO – I’m just going to say it… just going to get it out there. In response to the many that have emailed me concerned… which almost threw me over the edge, because you see it is the truth… I panic a little every time I check the mail.
I said it. I finally said it.
A few days ago I posted that I might have this little phobia which causes me to wince a little before opening my PO box or see a pile of recently delivered items on my desk… even email can draw up a twinge of blood pressure when I hear that ding “You’ve got mail”. But, as a person that does not frighten easily, I have drawn up reasonings for the fear as well as tactics to deal with…
I have thought about throwing in the towel – stopping the mail, but alas, mail is completely unavoidable in all of it’s forms and curses. So, not unlike people that can’t cross bridges or live in fear of stepping on cracks or Tickle Me Elmo –I move on. I breathe deeply and hope that the news is nothing but the latest issue of nonsense that I can pile onto my “going to read soon” stack….only for further obsession.
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You know when you mentioned this the other day I kinda thought you were nuts.Than I started to think about it. I think I may suffer from little phobia as well. Oh not as bad, but a little. I generally like getting mail but if it’s a letter without a return address or a hand written envelope my heart begins to pound. As for email, I love getting it but dread the fact that I actually must reply. I spend days agonizing over it and often my responses are very delayed.
seriously? you can write something that is not worth publishing? I do NOT believe it. Though how brave to come right out and face your fears like that. In public no less. Bravo.That is good that you only have “a going to read soon stack,” I have a bazillion of those. To the point where my house is going to be showcased on one of those tv shows, you know the ones. You would think that the fear of embarrassment would make me toss that junk as soon as it arrives… but no, it might be important later, years later, but I never read it so I didn’t know.