Guest Bird #10 – Mari
Remember my post on the Master Schedule? I neglected to mention that my biggest hurdle to actually following through with anything is my acute case of anti-willpower. It’s been plaguing me for years. I think a lot of those years the lazy bug stemmed from doing too much – I was working full-time, making art in my studio part-time, and an adjunct faculty teaching college courses part-time. And I lived 40 minutes away from all of it. I was overloaded, and it meant that I was never interested in doing any of the things I’d committed myself to do – because there was no commitment left in me.
The cheesy way to put it? I was losing any passion for what I was doing.
Luckily, it appears that working for myself is restoring my gumption. The Master Schedule – picking one main project to focus on each day of the week – works. Mostly. When I have an idea on Blog Monday that belongs with Art Wednesday, all I have to do is write it down for Wednesday (a tabbed notebook is KEY). There’s less paralysis over what priority is next. Plus, at the end of the week, I can actually see what I’ve accomplished on a daily basis. It does require flexibility. The week I devoted to Small for Big’s theWANTlists 2009? Well, it took all 5 days and the weekend. But I also knew I had dedicated time for each neglected project coming the following week – when I returned to the Master Schedule. Regrettably, some things don’t change. I still have to answer Freelance Tuesday’s emails even if it’s Etsy Thursday. And no matter what, when Baby Cries it’s Baby Day. She definitely forces me to be more realistic with my to-do lists. But the best part? I find myself willingly going back to get something done because I know it’s my only chance that week. I thought that part of me was long gone.
However, I am finding that if I push myself too hard, the burnout returns. I’ve been feeling it the last couple of days. Suddenly, all I want to do is be mom (nothing wrong with that, is there!) and knit someone else’s designs – mindlessly. The long and the short of it is this. Even when I’m doing what I love, I need to find a way to reward myself and rest. So the cliches about finding your passion have to be balanced with the other clichés about everything in moderation. So, apparently, I have to listen to all those kitschy signs and sayings? Ugh.
Mari (rhyme that with Atari, not Gary) is a full time Mom that owns and operates a huge for small blog called Small for Big, crafts like nobody’s business and stalks Martha in her spare time. She is also an accomplished artist and freelance designer. Heck, is there anything that Mari can’t do?
This is Mari’s second For the Birds landing. Click here to read her first post.
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